Hello? Are you listening? I can't sleep. I was just wondering, is it okay to pretend to date a girl, for a little bit? Like, not thattt seriously, like kind of as a joke and to like, understand, what it would be like. Also, I'm sorry. Okay, amen.
Okay, I know you gave my sister for a reason, but I didn't ask for her to be my daughter. Is this training me for something? Do you want me to be a teacher? A pediatrician? A mom???? Oh God, I don't want to be a mom. Can you help me be more patient? Please? Okay, amen.
Hi God, I really want to apologize for how that things with mom went. I mean I love Abi, you know I do. Just, watching her all the time is...a lot. And like, I do feel like they treat me like a third parent, even if I shouldn't have said that. I know I shouldn't have said any of that. I'm sorry. Help me to be more respectful. But, also, could you tell mom that it's not fair?? Sorry, nevermind. Amen.
God I am so lonely. I know you're supposed to be my best friend but you never talk back. My cousins are never around, my sister is a freaking five year old, the girls in my youth group don't like me, my youth leader pretends to like me, and the people on Tumblr are....just people online. God I'm so lonely I'm so lonely I'm so lonely I'm so lonely I'm so lonely I'm so lonelyI'm so lonely I'm so lonelyI'm so lonely I'm so lonelyI'm so lonely I'm so lonelyI'm so lonely I'm so lonelyI'm so lonely I'm so lonely.....please help me. Amen.
God, am I the reason I don't have friends? Do you think I fixate too much on women? Can you give me a sign? Amen.
God, I see your wonders in the ocean. It goes on forever and ever, like your forgiveness. How do I feel your forgiveness? How do I plunge into it the way that Abi plunges into the waves? I know I need to pray more, but how do I hear you? Why is the only spiritual conviction I feel guilt? What are you leading me to do? Thank you for the beach. Amen.